And yes. I’m waiting. Hoping to see you one last time. Hoping that you’ll come back. Hoping for that day that you’ll be mine again.
It may sound stupid, but I mean it.
You are aggravating the pain.
Yes, you’re making it worse. I tried to ignore it, but I just can’t. I acted like it doesn’t bother me at all, but I failed. It’s hard trying to get rid of something which you’re used to doing everyday. It’s hard trying not to talk to someone who used to be your daily dose of energy. I tried to think positive, but with what I’m seeing.. I think it’s just not worth the wait. I am not a person who gives up easily, but with what I see, I think… I already need to close my doors. You are worth it, but I think, this relationship is just not worth the fight anymore. I can’t stand seeing us like this. No. Seeing you happy without me hurts. It hurts. So bad, but I guess I’ll just have to accept that I am the only one left fighting for this. What hurts even more is knowing that what you believe in, is wrong. But what more can I do? I can’t control or dictate you. Well, whatever. I may sound dumb or numb, but I’ll always be here. Even you don’t care. I still, and I will always be here. Waiting. Even if I have to wait for nothing. I’m taking it from here. I love you. :)
I may be a little too clingy, or a little too out of my mind.. but yes, I love you even more when we’re apart or whenever we’re in bad terms.
I love you even though it hurts. I love you even though how many times you push me away. I love you even though I am the worst person in your eyes. I don’t know why, but I think I just love you a little too much..
I am not giving up, I am just giving way for all your bullshits to come out.
You’ll never find someone who’ll accept the 100% YOU like I did. You’ll never find someone who’ll understand you and your flaws. You’ll never find someone who’ll put too much effort just to see you smile. You’ll never find someone who’ll do anything, through thick and thin, just to make a relationship work like I did. You’ll never find some who’ll love you even more even when you’re down to your lowest point. You’ll never find someone who’ll see the beauty in you, even when you’re crying. You’ll never find someone who’ll love you like I did. Never. I assure you and everyone else. Never.
Narrow-minded people, you suck. Go to hell.
They accuse you for being a flirt, when all you ever did was to be loyal with them. They accuse you for having another guy while you’re in a relationship with them, when they’re all you ever saw.. no one else.
Why do you have to be so narrow-minded? Why do you have to push through something which is 0% true? Why can’t you just trust me and make me prove to everyone that I’m telling the truth?
I am not a liar, I am not a fraud, I am not a timer, and I am not a fucking hoe. When I told you that I love you and there’s no one else, I freaking meant it. I don’t sugarcoat things, I don’t do sweet talks just for the sake of saying it. Why do you have to accuse me that I am a liar, when all I ever did was to be true to you?
Maybe, just maybe. You need to open your mind a little bit. If you want a relationship to work…
I honestly have the greatest time talking to you.
You have no idea how the littlest things you say, put the biggest smile on my face. I never really realized it, but now I have. I enjoy talking to you. Exchanging witty remarks, and retorts with each other. I can’t help but laugh at how we tease each other the way we do. I can’t help falling for it. In turn, I couldn’t help falling for you as well. Whatever it is between us that we have, it’s only between you and I. That’s what makes it special for me. That’s what makes you special to me. Just thought I’d let you know.
“You’re the one that I stay up all night with, thinking about and coming up with cute ideas that we wish could happen.” :)
Certainly, truth with a capital “T” is difficult. Still it is at the core of a loving relationship. Trust is impossible without it. Where there is no trust, there can be no love.